So today has literally been one of those days, where you just want to stay in your pajamas in bed all day long. And the sad truth is I have, as soon as I put Emily down for her nap i crawled right back into bed and watched tv. Pathetic i know, but i couldn't really help it. Things should get easier with time, but this being alone thing isn't one that will get easier. I HATE IT. I mean i would love to go out and do something, but to be honest i have no one to go with except my daughter, and there isn't much to do with a nine month old. I guess i just wish i lived on or close to a post so that there would be other wives around to spend time with.
So five more months to go, i just hope it goes by fast i don't know how much more of this i can take. But guess i need to just suck it up and put my big girl panties on. And be a stronger mother and wife, my daughter doesn't understand what is going on right now but someday she will and i wont be able to act like this so i need to start learning to live my life the way i will want her to when her daddy leaves us for deployments. But it is going to be difficult i know, but i believe with a few prayers and family and friends as support i will manage. I love you Kyle and cannot wait until you come home.
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